Ever asked yourself why you wear makeup? Yes.
Have you always worn makeup everyday? No.
Why did I suddenly decide to try and wear makeup every day? Because I realized it makes me feel better about myself. I was happy without wearing makeup all the time, but I didn’t always feel good about the way I looked.
Well over the christmas break I started doing my makeup everyday (I had activities everyday, but also just because). I noticed that I felt more comfortable in my own skin, and I felt beautiful and empowered. Immediately I could not wait to see my husband and see what he thought about seeing me in makeup everyday.
Everything was going well except after 2-3 days I realized it has been a long time since I had bought any new makeup. I was with my mom at the mall and I had a Macy’s cash card and took the plunge and bought MAC’s Viva Glam 3 (I made a whole post about it here). I fell in love with it and wanted to try new looks with it but I had no eye shadows to do a nice look and I definitely needed some new brushes and items.
This is where the adventure began. I started looking for video tutorials and found two wonderful youtubers that I have been following since. After a few days I was watching a Q&A and the advice was so great that I took the plunge and decided to start this blog. In just a few days/weeks I have gone back in time to those years when I was modeling, and I was completely obsessed with makeup.
Now let me give a little background here:
Back when I was in middle school I took modeling classes and I was in love with that world. I spent about 3-5 years modeling in 2 agencies and I even got to do a fashion show and be an extra in a Disney movie. I also went to a modeling and acting competitions and I could see myself getting more and more involved in that world. I always worked out, felt beautiful, strong and powerful. The problems started back in those days because no one in my family supported me, except my mom. And it was hard not having that support which is essential in that world. Well finally I quit and decided to get focused completely on school and my medical career path.
So the rise and fall of my makeup addiction all had to do with those life choices.
Let’s get back on topic here, so during the holiday’s everywhere I went I got compliment after compliment and I just felt wonderful about myself. I have so much to be thankful for, but reconnecting with myself and feeling better about myself has given me new motivations and a new outlook on life. All of this took me back to those days on the runway where all eyes were on me, and people kept telling me how good I was and how beautiful. Something I haven’t felt for myself in a long time, and having it back felt good.
So the blog started and it has grown in numbers so fast I am eternally grateful and surprised for every single follower I have. Not only the numbers but the comments and support I have gotten keep me wanting to write more and more every day. I feel like a changed woman. It is hard to explain but I feel like I went back in time, confidence wise, but I am more assertive and mature, and it shows. It has been 3 days and several of my classmates and friends have approached me, told me I look great, and what changes I have made to my hair, etc. The attitude and self confidence exudes from the “new” me and I love it.
All of these changes and I feel like a new woman, more confident and secure in my journey and reaching my goals slowly but surely. Where will this journey take me? I have no idea, but I will try my hardest to keep going even when things get difficult in a few weeks.
Thanks for reading!
Amanda Bella says
Aww, I love this post, girl! Keep up all of the great work + hold onto your new found confidence! It’ll only get better from here! Glad to have connected with you, I just followed your blog + look forward to keeping up with your posts!! 🙂 XOXO
Jani V says
Thank you so much, and same. I always love getting to know new people and find inspiration when things get rough. A good support system is essential in my career 🙂